Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Living for the Applause of Heaven

I've written before about monotony and about invisibility. I've talked about the beauty of mundane life. (Mundane life takes on an extraordinary beauty when trials have hit us unexpectedly.) But today I want to share something I've been thinking about for a few days now. The Bible says our lives are hidden in Christ ( "For you died, and your life is now hidden in Christ with God." Colossians 3:3)  That's a lovely thought, but it also makes me think of many of us whose outward lives may not look like a lot to the world - in fact, you could say that we are almost hidden away. But in that hiddenness is a beautiful look into God's heart.

Much of my day to day life is spent caring for our daughter who has cerebral palsy. It isn't what I would have chosen my life to look like. It certainly isn't what I wanted for her.  I also don't think that God has "assigned" our daughter this terrible disability, though at times, I've wondered. There's been thoughts like, "Is this disability supposed to develop our character? Make us stronger?" No, I don't think so.  What I do know is that I took His hand, sometimes hesitantly, and began walking with Him through this unexpected time of life. I've talked, cried, and poured out my heart to Him. I've questioned Him, raged at Him, and fell asleep while crying and talking with Him about her condition and future.

There seems no end to the work involved in caring for our daughter.That is just a statement of our lives.  I don't always have a good attitude about it. Sometimes I long for a day of no real commitment. I can't even imagine what that would be like. There is a lot of repetition of her daily care and a lot of anguish in my heart on some days. There have been many times where I've left her room after putting her to bed or giving her lunch, only to stop and cry as I'm going back upstairs. The "whys?" in my heart have had no answers. The "whys" are not just for myself, but for my daughter also. It is a terrible thing when the dreams you've had have died. But even those crushed, broken dreams and heart have to be offered to Him.

There are so many dreams I have for her.  I want her to have the chance to not only pursue her own dreams, but to do the little things we take for granted. I want to see her be able to take a shower any time she feels like it, to get up in the middle of the night to get a drink, to be able to curl her hair and put on her make up, to do her nails, to wear high heels and a pretty dress, to run down the road just for fun, to drive with the top down in a convertible, to go through a drive through to order a Coke, to create a sandwich just the way she likes it, to hold her little brother's hand as they take a walk together, to get up in the middle of the night and watch a movie, to go to Target and buy whatever shampoo she'd like to try, to go and get her hair cut, to have a pedicure, to walk around the mall and window shop, to go to the movies with a friend, or to sit in her sister's room and just talk.

 Will these dreams for her ever be? I don't know. I hope so. My faith feels tired, but it is still there. I know that Jesus is my friend and that He knows and sees and understands. I don't understand the "whys", but I know I can trust Him with everything that is dear to my heart.

 I see Jesus differently than I used to. If you had asked me about Him before, I could have given you a nice, heartfelt "Christian" answer. But He would have sounded like a very sanitized historical figure. I think my knowledge of Him and relationship with Him was limited at best. There is something about walking through a crushing time with Him that forces you to get to know Him in a way you might not have been able to before. It is kind of like, "Oh, I can see You now!" Where as before, it seemed like I was squinting to get a good look.

 God has been speaking to me about the hiddenness of my life (and your life if you are reading this and feel this is speaking to you) and living for the applause of Heaven. When life here has ended, all that will really matter is what we have offered up to Him and the obedience we have walked in (sometimes with our extremely limited vision.)  I think we will be surprised when we arrive in Heaven one day. I never think of myself as anyone special, and maybe you feel your life isn't anything special, but I think on that day, our eyes will be opened to what our lives have looked like to Him on that side of eternity.

Everything I've ever offered up to Him, for Him, has not been forgotten by Him. (Even the things I've forgotten about.) He remembers what you have given Him. He sees every tear you've cried when you've been by yourself whether it was tears of exhaustion, sorrow, rejection, or not understanding why all these things in your life are happening.  You've made the choice to walk with Him even through the pain of not understanding. You have made the choice to love Him despite what is taking place around you. He will not forget your choice, your heart, or your life.

Your life is hidden with Christ in God. There may not be applause or recognition right now. That is okay. "...your alms (giving) may be in secret and your Father which sees in secret himself shall reward you openly." Matt. 6:4

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Thursday, April 18, 2013

It's the Little Things

This is what I wake up to most mornings.

 My husband gets up many mornings at 5 am to get ready for early morning appointments, makes the coffee, and sets my cup out with a spoon and a packet of Truvia.

It always makes me smile when I see my cup ready to go. ( I like to add sugar free vanilla creamer and a bit of sf vanilla syrup to mine also.)

Until I have that first cup of coffee, I sound like the teacher from Charlie Brown. Listen below:

                                                                         courtesy Youtube

My husband is a great man who also indulges me in my Sonic addiction of tator tots with cheese and a cherry Coke. (I've cut way back on these, but still enjoy them once in a blue moon). Sonic is one of my true loves!

courtesy Google

What are the little things your husband does for you? It's those things that mean so much!

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Thursday, April 11, 2013

Beauty on a Budget

I was kind of awful looking from 7th grade until maybe about seventeen..  I had very thick, coarse hair ( and still do), bushy eyebrows, freckles, big teeth (maybe it's nicer to say a big smile), and I was tall and skinny. Either my pants were too short or too long. I didn't really know how to do anything to improve myself. It certainly didn't help that I also had  sciolosis and had to constantly remind myself to stand up straight. Yes, you get the picture.

I wouldn't say I was anything special now, but it is a huge improvement from then!!

Some of the things I've used and loved for skin and make up are:

$7.94 for 2

Noxzema. I've used this since I was about sixteen.  It's been around forever, but really cleans your face gently and well. I read an article once about a little old lady that used Noxzema and still had a peaches and cream complexion. So here's hoping for those results!

Neutrogena Healthy Skin Anti-Wrinkle Cream has retinol and is very gentle.

$11.47 for Neutrogena

Aveeno Scrub Facial Pads. I love how luxurious these feel on my face.

Aveeo $6.47

I also use Avalon's Vitamin C from time to time. It smells like grapefruit, which I like:)

Vitamin C Face Wash $8.67

Flat Iron (Oh, WHY didn't someone invent you back in junior high?? Waaaa!)

Remington flat iron $39.99

Garnier Straightening Hair Cream (This does seem to help with my very thick, unruly hair)

Garnier Blow Dry cream $3.47

Eyelash curler (To me, this is the most important thing you can use on your eyes). On a side note, it totally freaked out my husband the first time he saw me using this contraption on my eyes. lol

eye lash curler $5

Kate Moss lipstick. This can be found for under $5 at Walmart or Target.

My favorite perfume - Juicy Couture - is one splurge, but I can make it last for a long time.

For the past three years, I've been investing in manicures. It makes such a difference in how my hands look. I get positive comments about my nails quite often. There is an initial investment for acrylic nails, but it only costs about $15 every 3 weeks to keep them up. It's a little thing that I do for myself.

When I think of beauty, I always think of my grandma. Even in her eighties, she was dying her hair jet black AND had some Glamour Shots taken! Remember those?  She was a pretty lady even as she got older. She told me once that she still felt eighteen inside and was surprised when she looked in the mirror and saw an older woman looking back at her.  She acted young because she felt young. She was so much fun!

I just turned the big  "50"  recently. I don't feel 50. I have a 7 year old! Life is sweet.

I think I shall take after my grandma:)

I'd love to hear your favorite buys!


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Thursday, April 4, 2013

What's the Soundtrack to Your Life?

Have you ever thought what it would be like if there was background music to our daily lives? I have comical thoughts like that from time to time.

Such as when I'm going into our laundry room...

Well, that might be too scary. I think I just scared myself.
But sometimes when I want to sit down and write, I do use music to help me put my thoughts on paper.
One of my very favorites is the soundtrack to the movie Little Women (Wynona Ryder version).
It is so beautiful.
Gone with the Wind also has a beautiful theme song.
So does Gladiator.
 "Latika's Theme" from the movie Slumdog Millionaire is another favorite.

 My son votes for Mission Impossible. Hmmm...that would work on days when I can't seem to get ahead of the housework:)

One last one is the song "Worthy of It All". This is a clip of that song. Jesus is what makes life have any meaning at all.
What about you? What songs would you choose for your life?
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